Thursday, December 02, 2010

its the most wonderful time of the year...

Well, its that time of year... there are trees popping up in places that confuse nature, there are Christmas commercials jangling at us and most importantly... I get to eat a chocolate every single day! I like to think back on what I was doing this time last year... starting my job at vue, I think... yup, New Moon was running its course and Avatar was a week or so away from release and I was mostly cut off from the world or sanity or something- I'd hardly spoken to anyone outside my mother and brother, a bunch of cats, a dog and the babies we had... I got far less sleep then, shift work combined with unholy babysitting hours was a nightmare, I can tell you!

You know what though? I have done, like, so much stuff this year... I worked a lot, and it began to feel like that was all I did- babysit... work... eat... sleep... But; I auditioned for a few Universities, got into university, went to hong kong, dyed my hair for the first time, went to my first convention, was featured in a sci fi magazine, met adam baldwin (stand up bloke- though if he was sat down we'd be on a better eye line hehe), met kyle newman (director of fanboys!!), moved out of home, met a boy, do my university stuff.... I remember last year I woke up at like 5am every morning to listen to stage right on blogtalkradio, good times, though, if I'm honest, I probably should have taken those couple of extra hours' sleep. 

Thing is... last year, I really wasn't all that happy a person. I smiled a lot, and said smiley things- but i was like alone for a long time. Pretty much all of my friends had moved away, I was sat around doing not a lot- couldn't afford to do anything really, didnt have anyone to do it with anyway. I remember crying all night before my audition to UEL- thinking I was going to fail miserably, and also that i had pissed off everyone. Now I really hate thinking that i've upset someone or made them angry- if the idea so much as goes into my head, I confess it- my eyes well up and I try to run away so they won't know- which then makes me think that I'm pissing them off even more because they think I'm ignoring them... I'm getting off track- This year is going a lot better (so far) I'm doing what I love, aggravating as it is at times, I'm around people who I can talk to and be silly with, its just... better. I love my mom, I really do- but I really needed to get away from home.

Back to the time of the year- its brilliant- I'm going home for a couple of weeks in about 18 days, got three essays to write over the holiday, oh... did I mention I have two performances i the next two weeks? oh yeah, its going to be grand! I dont know *what* we're doing in one of them, and the other is a public performance... anyone can watch and we're doing some pretty weird stuff... 

Well, I'm not entirely sure where i was going with this post, or what I'm even talking about anymore, so I'll say 'toodles!'











written badly by Naomi Wong